Arthur Rackham - Alice in Wonderland, Advice from a Caterpillar
"We'Re All Mad Here"
The previous solar week was about penetrating awareness, aliveness, and extreme presence in experiencing the world speak to you. It was about developing a survival awareness through a competitive perspective, and it might have brought intuitive clarity and courage in the face of possible challenges and shock. It could have been about stepping onto uncharted territory and leaving the known behind, or being empowered in leaving the old and sticky behind and immersing in the new challenges of the present moment. That's for the things that end. For the things that are starting right now, there can be an energy of getting stuck in old emotional and relationship patterns that are a real challenge to work through and can easily make us feel held back. That might be one of the reasons why the new moon that started the current moon cycle was about waiting for the right time to act. But don't trust me, especially now, we are in times of misinformation, trust yourself on what to do and when.
Collectively, we have been in a space of transition for some time. This week is very Neptunian in its quality. A huge change on the surface can happen abruptly overnight. But a huge change that goes deeper and causes lasting transformation is often preceded by a long process of gradual change. This solar week is about endings that lead us through slow and steady change and transformation, which might lead to the recognition of what has future potential and is worth to invest in. It is about exploring and maybe truly understanding the value of things. In relationships, not all ambition has to be answered. Not everyone has the potential that is needed and that fits, and not all drive leads somewhere helpful. As much as this is about the recognition what has future potential, this also is about the recognition of what does not have any potential.
13 October 2021 21:12 UTC: Beginning of the new solar week in gate 32.1▲ ䷟ (Libra) – active channels of the moment: an integration field consisting of the channel of charisma (18.104.22.168 South Node-22.214.171.124 North Node), the channel of the brain wave, and the channel of power (126.96.36.199▽ Mars) // completely open ajna and ego
Keywords: Understanding the VALUE of things, what things are worth, and what or who is worth investing in. Who has the ambition and drive to make things work consistently, and who does not have ambition and reliability and is just a bag full of misinformation? Nodes and Moon: Self-awareness that we need. Developing a necessary self-awareness and learning to deal with limitations.
Conservative social interaction and developing thorough judgment on what to be open/closed to and what behavioral norms have/lack value and should be sustained/abandoned - or shooting from a hip and from a limited understanding and creating chaos and negative feedback.
- 14 October 2021 3:31 UTC: Sun in 188.8.131.52▲ (Libra) in waning quincunx to Neptune in 184.108.40.206 (Pisces)
Collective challenge: Acting without having the full picture, and creating awkward social situations.
Possibly selling solutions and concepts and ideas that are not thorough, but because we didn't properly evaluate them, we didn't notice. Having to do the evaluation work is not necessarily a pleasant process and can create anxiety, but such anxiety is temporary. Skipping the evaluation process due to anxiety and fear of inadequacy and failure creates way more problems and renewed anxiety and inadequacy through the resulting failure. It's just the way of life that we are born dumb (all of us) and need to work our way up to refined intelligence and discernment, or that we need to work our way out of some of the social norms that we inherited from our parents but that do not continue to hold much value. No one is born an all-knowing master. There is no skipping of steps. But going through the process is worth it.
Mastering the challenge: Paying attention to all aspect of a process, and thus not missing important details. Being able to come to a thorough conclusion on what has value through paying close attention to all pertaining aspects. Bypassing or outgrowing established social standards and norms through understanding all aspects or perspectives, and yet conserving those social standards that are valuable.
Conditioning others into collaboration that is not productive and effective - or fixing problems and transforming outdated values through a platform embodied in human rights and the necessary restraint to keep it going.
- 15 October 2021 11:46 UTC: Sun in 220.127.116.11 (Libra) trine Jupiter in 18.104.22.168▲ (Aquarius)
Collective challenge: Conditioning others into recognizing one's advertised potential or into recognizing an advertised solution through persuading them. Being conditioned into believing that such pressured collaboration and forced restraint will enhance inspiration, and being conditioned into possible distractions.
Mastering the challenge: Resisting such inferior influences because we need to trust our own judgment and knowing. On the other hand, if the conditioning and correction is based on solid principles, this can as well be a good thing and help us find better principles or understand the underlying principles. The potential for restraint of one person or of a few people can benefit many: They can condition others into transformation and good values, and bring others to understanding and correction of the resulting principles. For example, this fits the intention of the recent world food summit. I'm not sure if it fits the actual reality of the summit, but certainly it fits the intention of stopping to trample on human rights, and instead finding ways in which resources can be properly distributed so that no one has to suffer hunger.
Wildness and a warning that enforces respect or consequences in the face of boundary violation and an obvious lack of respect – no time for pleas and asking for a respect that's not being given. Persistence on our truth despite conditioning, maintaining a focus on the necessary details, and staying in good faith.
- 16 October 2021 18:48 UTC: Venus in 22.214.171.124 (Sagittarius) trine Chiron in 126.96.36.199 (Aries)
17 October 2021 0:31 UTC: Mars in 188.8.131.52▲▽ (Libra) in waning quincunx to Neptune in 184.108.40.206 (Pisces)
17 October 2021 1:23 UTC: Mercury in 220.127.116.11 (Libra) sextile Venus in 18.104.22.168 (Sagittarius)
17 October 2021 12:12 UTC: Sun in 22.214.171.124 (Libra) square Pluto in 126.96.36.199 (Capricorn)
This reads like a judge, law enforcement, or another power in between two parties reminding someone that they need to overstep a restraining order or something like that, or handing out actual penalties for it.
On the private level this simply is about having the strength to fend interference off with absolute determination and wildness when we need to defend our boundaries, and about not letting doubt drag us down into hopelessness. It is about having the faith that at some point even the biggest asshole will get it and leave us alone, or will be struck by legal penalty or karma so that they will stop messing with us. And while we head toward that moment, we do not let the fear sneak in and blurr the focus that we need, but we keep up focus, composure, concentration, and detailed attention on what we need to do.
Others around us might get lost in distractions and in trivial considerations that do not matter, and they might procrastinate when they do not feel equipped for the challenge. But we keep the focus that we need and advance step by step by step, and at some point in the future we will be there. If we need to have our faith renewed and to have our spirit lifted up, we do not pay attention to those people who get themselves lost, but we orient ourself by those people who are good role models at persisting and who manage to stay in good spirit while they do what's practical. And we persist even in the face of the strongest conditioning and interference because we know our truth.
Jupiter direct: Platform. Revolution through persuasion. Transformation through persuasion embodied in human rights and a just agenda - or heavy conditioning and empty promises with the sole purpose to exploit another. Trusting the wisdom of the higher self and choosing the path of beauty and harmony despite the necessary restraint, adaption, and control that it might demand of us – or not, and flirting with disaster: Failing to acknowledge what truly has potential, following lower immature motivations or simply being hooked by fishy promises instead of trusting ourself, acting against better knowing, and running into disaster.
- 18 October 2021 5:29 UTC: Jupiter direct in 188.8.131.52▲ (Aquarius) trine Mars in 184.108.40.206 and the Sun in 220.127.116.11▽ and in a semi-sextile to Pluto in 18.104.22.168. Jupiter in a wide trine to Uranus in 22.214.171.124, and Mars and the Sun in a wide waxing quincunx to Uranus in 126.96.36.199
Carl Spitzweg - The Butterfly Hunter
This is about manifesting transformation through persuasion and through the control of power. It's like the taming power of the great, gate 26. This brings sales and heavy conditioning through people trying to sell to each other and convince them of their principles, their God, their honesty, their good intentions, their projects, investing in their projects or collaborating with them, and so on. If the principles are solid and of a high frequency – great! Then this will bring a great deal of transformation and positive growth on the inside and on the outside. Collectively, it can bring progress in terms of Human Rights and resource distribution, but rather locally than with joint force. It might not be implemented through a global unit and coordinated joined effort, but by separate countries implementing their own solutions separately. Attempts for teaming up might just fizzle out of bring inefficient results.
Jupiter went retrograde in the 55.3, and brought possible failure. Over the last months, Jupiter, the archetype of the husband, wandered through the territory of godhead Kali, the destroyer of false devotion. It brought a process of acknowledging that things fail or have failed (e.g. world hunger is still unresolved), or that certain things are not meant to work out altogether (e.g. certain relationships or collaborations). Jupiter retrograde might have confronted us with the question for what we can take responsibility, for what we can't take responsibility, when it is good to follow orders, and when it is good to think for ourself. Jupiter retrograde exposed what does not work, not just in our own approach, but also in established structures. Jupiter going direct brings the transformation, change, and possible reorientation to make things work (not necessarily the same thing that failed, but the thing that leads to greater beauty and harmony).
Jupiter going direct obviously impacts people with gate 49, and on a social or private level this is about marriage or divorce, which has been a main theme of the year 2021. A major theme over the recent months for emotionally defined people was to accept their emotions and thus to slowly move toward emotional clarity. I talked about this endlessly. [ Read upon what it means to have an emotional authority and to wait for emotional clarity ]. Now might be a time when an emotional bond has been forged toward another person, where the potential of the relationship has been recognized, and maybe also the other person's transformative potential or the overall transformative potential of the relationship has been recognized. Now, people are going to persuade that person to be with them. Recognizing another person's transformative potential matters because if someone does not have the drive to transform and to work on themselves, but we do, then even if the relationship works at the moment, it will only be a matter of time until we have outgrown the other person, and divorce follows probably still within the first Saturn cycle. Ironically, the only way to make something last is to embrace transformation and change, which includes acceptance of the crisis that leads up to the change.
Jupiter going direct brings a deep capacity for social transformation. It brings a transformative capacity for others through persuasion and through being able to explain and transmit to them the value of just principles and standards, and the value of Human Rights.
Collective challenge: On the downside, people refuse to adapt to what would be healthy for them and follow their immature lower motivations, or alternatively they let themselves be held back from living a truly beautiful life because they are afraid of failure (self-sabotage). Some also might sabotage their own healthy direction, and then because they are so stuck (self-inflicted), they try to distract themselves from what they are missing out on, they go for option B, C or D, and they sabotage others into sharing that same unhealthy direction with them. They might want to force an unhealthy direction upon life, coming from a very immature and ego-distorted place. They might try to talk and condition others into things, possibly into a collaboration, and yet often these things might not be correct for the other person, and they might just watch and wonder why people insist on a relationship or a collaboration that is just nonsensical and that will only bring greater disharmony, distraction, and futile struggle.
Mastering the challenge: Rejecting adaptation to things when we truly need it and do not want to be controlled (sabotaged and conditioned) by others in unhealthy ways.
Overcoming our insecurities, our fear of failure, and our fear of lack of potential, and trusting our inner truth. Jupiter retrograde in 55.3 has brought things that did not work. That was then, now is now. Only because these things did not work, it does not mean that that pattern has to repeat in the future. We learn from it what we need to learn, and then the journey continues.
I don't know if this will ring true other than for my fellow north node-people who don't have any planets on their south node that keep them stuck in the sticky comfort zone and in what's familiar even if unhealthy - but here is the perspective of my Pluto in gate 28.6: I have zero regrets over the huge things that were right for me but failed. It even brought me the best and most worthwhile and purposeful experience of my life, although it did not last. It was the most purposeful thing, and when it failed it was the most painful thing, but at least I experienced it and I don't regret it, to the contrary I'm happy I experienced it. If I had died in it, I would not have cared, at least not about myself, only about the grief of my parents and brother, and for me it would still have been worth all of it. It was short-lived, but worthwhile every second. If I had let myself be held back by fears, I would have saved me a failure, but I would also have never experienced the feeling of purpose and the deep, deep fulfillment and meaning that comes with it – I would not even know it exists, and I would not know that fulfillment is possible. If you won't do what feels right for your whole being, but if instead you make foul compromises and self-sabotage yourself into way less than you could have - would you regret it your whole life? Would you stay wondering what would have happened if only you would have the courage to do it? Would you beat yourself up over not doing it? Deep regret sounds like a price that is way too high to pay. Regret and the pain over having abandoned yourself, your hopes, and your dreams is a very painful thing to carry. Often times, in the long run the regret will be a much higher price and a much more painful price to pay than the possible failure that we might risk. Failure might bring immediate pain that passes and at some point makes room for beautiful memories. Regret and the question on what kind of beautiful memory you missed gathering tends to stick. Imagining these different consequences of our possible action and weighing them against each other, we can realize what's truly important to us, and we can push through the fear.
Another aspect of mastering the challenge has to do with the restraint that we might need in order to get something across and to be able to persuade others and convince them of principles or of an agenda that is fair and embodied in Human Rights (or of our emotions and intentions with them). On the up side, this brings great capacity for restraint, adaptation to changing times, veiling our inner light when we need it and when it is socially necessary (which in some form is part of the energy of the coming eclipse in November), and explaining to people the benefits of something. We control our power in a way that serves the common good, and hold back our own sensitivities or even destructive tendencies for something greater. This can be about developing a healthy self-control. Also, you can only persuade someone if there is reciprocity. If there is no reciprocity at all, but instead a very clear statement of rejection or exclusion, continuing to persuade them would become boundary violation, and that also brings the need for self-restraint.
Mercury direct: Questions of recognizing authentic potential and self-worth, which allows us to do what's practical – or letting oneself be being discouraged. Recognizing the practical steps and actions to take. Being wild and warning people can also be practical, especially in times of such heavy conditioning. Uncovering the depth of our inner wildness, untamedness, and freedom.
- 18 October 2021 15:16 UTC: Mercury direct in 188.8.131.52 (Libra) opposite Chiron in 184.108.40.206 trine Saturn in 220.127.116.11▲ and trine Black Moon Lilith in 18.104.22.168 and the North Node in 22.214.171.124, sextile Venus in 126.96.36.199. The Moon in 188.8.131.52 is in a wide waxing quincunx to Mercury.
19 October 2021 2:36 UTC: Mars in 184.108.40.206 (Libra) trine Jupiter in 220.127.116.11 (Aquarius)
Collective challenge: Deep insecurity, and letting others condition us into feeling insecure, not equipped, not ready, and so on. Letting oneself be conditioned and dampened in one's enthusiasm when it comes to one's inner vision - and staying stuck. Having others project all kinds of things onto us without truly seeing us, and watch them try to fix things within us that are legit, thinking there is something wrong with us when there might rather be something wrong with them and when that's their own issue. Letting these things get way too close to us, allowing them to doubt ourself, and to make us feel to insecure – which keeps us stuck and keeps us from moving.
We can't talk others into things against their will. But talking others out of things can be equally damaging. We can offer critical feedback and questions, but ultimately we need to let each person decide for themselves and encourage them to do what feels right for them and what they feel enthusiastic about.
Mastering the challenge: Recognizing the potential that's authentic, recognizing what's practical to do, including on the material realm, and having learned to accept change. Possibly going for the depth in life – if that's authentic. Sometimes, this might bring recognition of the secrets of time, what will happen in the future, or when it might be a practical time to act. Sometimes, these secrets can be encouraging, sometimes they can be discouraging, but ultimately we must decide what's right for us authentically regardless: When you know what's due in 1 month, and it does not seem very favorable to you, nonetheless you still don't know what's due in 3 years. If you stick to the right thing for you, the wind might have turned by then.
Mercury went retrograde in the 32.6, and now as he turns direct the Sun is in 32.6. This is all about accepting transformation, change, and impermanence as the nature of life. Impermanence and change can be temporarily strenuous, but it does not have to make us feel insecure about ourself. Things come and go, but what we learned in that process always sticks with us as a valuable lesson. It can lead to deeper solutions through the lessons having been learned, and to a deeper ability to experience life.
This is also is about waiting for clarity, of for the right moment to share our feelings, or whatever things we learned, WHILE WE DO NOT ALLOW OTHERS TO DISCOURAGE US AND TO DAMPEN OUR ENTHUSIASM FOR WHAT EXCITES US! Rejecting when others project their own imbalanced energy and shadows onto us.
It can also go the other way: Positive encouragement of others, seeing how things work well, and finding deeper enthusiasm.
Once again, there is a similar energy to the one from October 15th.
This energy that accompanies Mercury going direct is about manifesting transformation through being able to restrain oneself and about maintaining harmony through control. Obviously this can be the self-control to do what we need to do and what's practical in order to develop solutions, or to create or maintain a platform for change. But it also is about controlling others when they interfere and need to be controlled, or when they simply are the type of person that does not have an independent character and needs clear instructions to follow. First and foremost, this will be about controlling one's own power in the right ways, and putting one's wildness on display as a warning, but not using the power against others unless someone really wants to test our boundaries and starts to interfere with us.
The next solar week will be about difficulty at the beginning that demands value refinement and taking responsibility for ourself. It can bring resolving confusion around responsibility, values, laws, and wishes: There is a full moon of “doing me” that can either keep people stuck in conditioning, old structures, and living out other people's opinions and dreams despite inner resistance - or it can bring individual mutation through sticking to the process of inner growth and accepting guidance only selectively when it feels true and right for US individually.
Two weeks ago there might have been great insecurity and doubt. Now this might all resolve because we stuck to the process of self-development and have gone the extra mile. This moon cycle is all about learning to trust ourself first, and only in trusting ourself can we resist being held back by the wrong outside influences. Only in trusting ourself first can we live the life that is truly ours.